2014-02-28 From S.

2014-02-28

Oh Carlos!

You make me feel an expert in contradiction … Well, in truth it has been almost always like that. And precisely for that reason that you call quality communication. Communication that, between us, has been quite poor in my opinion.

Recently, a wise man told me that we end up loving those who transmit us tranquility and we end up hating those who stress us. And so, it goes!

You “stressed” me when you told me that in the future … and reassures me when you write to me sincerely and with time … It was not so difficult to explain that you were involved and that you would answer me in time one day, instead of putting … We spoke in the future! Is it the same? Yes, but often the container is as important as the content. In conclusion, the forms.

I am very glad that you are as well as you tell me and I really think you deserve it, since you have been looking for yourself for a long time. And in that sense, I’m glad that you get closer and closer to yourself and shape yourself.

As for me, you already know that I am the same as always. Increasingly away from social conventions and closer to my personal conventions. Deciding who and how I want to be. And assuming the costs and benefits that this entails. Smiling to life when it smiles at me and smiling again when it doesn’t because I have learned to tickle it. I have learned that the difficult is achieved and the impossible is attempted.

I’m fine, wanting to live this end of the degree and then have more time for myself … I think next year will be a sabbatical year of study, since I assume that English will have to be part of my being (at the end I accepted it) and I wish I could live for a while in some small town in Ireland. Learning English and defining myself. I have finally lost the rush. And it has cost me lots, but it is the best. Not to think about what is coming tomorrow but to dwell on what I have today. And today I have this letter in my hands, which I am very happy about.

I want to see you but see you as I have read in the letter. Serene and sincere. Although mistakes belong to our learning and we both made many mistakes, I think that it is not necessary to do more harm. Nor to venture that if there were possible future errors they will belong to our learning. If they do, they will belong to our learning, but growing is learning to say goodbye on many occasions. And of course, it is not about blaming, that is for Christians, we must try to take responsibility for our actions.

I hope that if there is another letter you are as good as up to now or better. And tell me a little bit if you plan to come to the graduation. I guess it was because you asked me something. You already know that I don’t care much about these things. I graduate yes, but I don’t know the day or anything … (You know living in the present and … that’s May right? Hehehe).

What was said, I hope you are very well and I send you a huge hug.

Your friend: S.!!