2014-03-10 From Al.

2014-03-10

Dear Carlos,

Finally I venture to put into practice my gift for writing … It is rare not to know about you for so long, and the fact that now I am writing a letter to put remedy to the situation. But well, everything be for knowing about you.

I suppose that living in another country you will be a little isolated from the latest news about your home country, but come on, it is not that it matters too much what is happening around here … In Canary Islands we face the great oil titan, with no apparent possibilities of stopping it, as much as the government and the Canarian people have joined forces to stop it… Repsol enters our coasts, takes our oil (if there is any) and we are promised to become the new Dubai, but nobody believes it.

Without downplaying the above, I would like to tell you about myself.

“I am a normal, simple boy, just looking to have fun and what comes up, for a sporadic relationship or… who knows if I can be the love of your life?”

Well yes, although it seems funny, that’s me, more normal every day, and with the strangest life… Sometimes I feel that the script of the things that happen to me is written by Almodóvar. I began a romantic relationship on January 26, with a boy whom I hardly knew, but who, after crossing a couple of words in a shopping center, I went completely crazy for him, and I waited two months for him to return from his work in Switzerland. Once the relationship began, everything seemed to be going well, until for some reason of fate, I insisted that things were not going well, and I left him. After 5 days I regretted it, and I went back to him… But it’s not what I expect from a relationship at all. Now on top of that it happens that I have met a Valladolid student of French Philology in Salamanca at the carnivals, with whom I have been madly amazed, but today he has returned to his life, and I really do not know whether to do something crazy and take a trip to the peninsula. Before that, I have to think what I do with my relationship, because things are not going well at all…

I think all of the above is due to a prolonged accumulation of lack of affection, and which now makes me give myself 100% with people who perhaps are not appreciating everything I have, and they only see me as a pretty face and a gaze that lately speaks by itself about sadness and depression.

You will have seen my photos with makeup, I suppose… They are the work of my “boyfriend?”, in his determination (not rejected from my side) to make me some kind of a model. I don’t truly know if that image benefits me, given the encounters I have lately when facing people’s comments assuring that I am “someone empty”. It’s is not that I care about what people think, because I know how I really am, but I feel a little bad …

The degree in general is going quite well, although I can’t really focus on my studies when so many things happen in my life. Next year I think I need a change, but I’m still afraid to leave the nest … I don’t know what I will do, but it would be nice to finish my studies.

So, I can’t think of anything else to tell you… I’ve enrolled into a scout group in Gran Canaria, and this year I’m going to present myself to Ruta Siete again.

I really don’t know what I feel like doing this summer. The other day the movie Into The Wild, reminded me a lot about you … And now, I think I want to go to Alaska… Hahaha

And you what about?

How is your project going? Internships?

I look forward to your response!

Al.